Now officially a YA

Wow it's been ages since I last posted..

I've cut my hair!!! hehehe.. Preferred my long hair but just had to chop it off cos the split ends were just uncontrollable.

Praise Report - God's been so good to me. As I was waiting for my results, I was so sure that I was going to graduate with a Second Class Lower but when I went to take my certificate, I was surprised to read..

University of East London

It is hereby certified that

Michelle Melissa Foo

having duly satisfied all prescribed conditions was on 25 June 2009
duly admitted to the degree of

Bachelor of Arts with Second Class (Upper Division) Honours

having followed an approved Honours programme in

Business Administration

** Of course they had to spell Record as Reecord on the certificate... Sigh! So now I'll need to wait for a new certificate..

I've had about 2 months of holiday + traveling so it's high time that I find a job and start earning some $$$.. haha...

I've sent out my application to quite a number of companies and have gone for several interviews as well. Will post more about it later..

He hears my prayer

<sup>Psalm 4

1</sup> Answer me when I call to you,
O my righteous God.
Give me relief from my distress;
be merciful to me and hear my prayer.

² How long, O men, will you turn my glory into shame?
How long will you love delusions and seek false gods?

³ Know that the LORD has set apart the godly for himself;
the LORD will hear when I call to him.

⁴ In your anger do not sin;
when you are on your beds,
search your hearts and be silent.

⁵ Offer right sacrifices
and trust in the LORD.

⁶ Many are asking, "Who can show us any good?"
Let the light of your face shine upon us, O LORD.

⁷ You have filled my heart with greater joy
than when their grain and new wine abound.

⁸ I will lie down and sleep in peace,
for you alone, O LORD,
make me dwell in safety.

Grace

Where would I be if not for your grace
Carrying me through every season
Where would I be if not for your grace
You came to my rescue
And I wanna thank you
For Your
Grace that restores
Grace that redeems
Grace that releases me to worship
Grace that repairs
Visions and dreams
Grace that releases miracles

Was just listening to Israel's song earlier in the car and it really struck me..

Where would I be if not for Your grace?

I thank God that His grace and mercies are new every morning.. His grace and love truly does restore and gives us that hope to live one.. Knowing that we are not condemned in Christ Jesus..

Better

I was just lying in bed yesterday trying to pray and just trying to be comforted in God's presence. Somehow however I just felt God being really far away and felt that I was in this situation all alone. Just then, a super old friend from my former church whom I have not been in touch with for sometime sent me this msg..

The God that we serve is not One that abandons His people. You are His so He CANNOT and WILL NOT forsake you. God Bless!

She did not know what I was going through. It was certainly God speaking through her at that moment to me. Those words comforted me so much that I just started to cry even more. But this time not tears of loneliness or sorrow but rather tears of gratefulness and in awe of God's awesomeness and His huge humongous love for me. Her next message read:

God's with you girl. He always has been there. It's hard to see it but He is faithful. Speak to Him and cry out cause He listens though it feels like He isn't. Cling to His promises cause it's given to you as your inheritence. You're precious to Him.

Things are a little better today and I pray that I will have the strength to not let the words of others come in the way of my spiritual walk or my confidence in God. That I will hold dear to all His promises for my life. That His plan and will for my life will be fulfilled in His perfect timing.

100th post

It's my 100th post!

It's been a rough night.. or rather still is.. had a tiff with someone and some words were said about my past.. and I'm not sure how to go about handling it.. the past is supposed to be behind me.. yet when this person brings it up, it brings up bad memories, times of me not being a very good person.. and I'm trying so hard to just move on and live a life that is pleasing to God but it just gets so tough at some point..

Does it get any easier?

It's a new season

I thought that today would be hard.. In fact, last night I tried really hard to go to sleep early so I wouldn't have to think so much about today.. Woke up feeling a little funny.. Spent sometime praying and felt the peace of God fill my heart..

We reached the place like 40 minutes early.. Was told that we should be there by 9am as it would start by then, however it only started around 10am.. There were 4 others before me and my cousin managed to make it just before the first one went up.. There were some hiccups with some of them, but mine finished in about 5 minutes or even less I would say.. it went on really smoothly and was over before I knew it.. I didn't have to say or answer any questions..

Initially I didn't wanna go cos I didn't wanna face those involved, but I was surprisingly very calm when I met them and even spoke to them.. It was not a bitter experience.. In fact, once it was over, there was a huge rush of relieve that I felt cos it's something that I've been waiting for for 2 years..

I'm so grateful to my loving Father who's grace and mercies are new every morning.. I'm grateful for second chances.. I'm grateful for a forgiving heart.. I'm grateful for his endless love that just brings me to tears everytime I think about it.. Thank You Jesus!!..

I'm so thankful for my parents who have stood by me throughout this whole journey, family who have continuously loved me no matter the situation, cell members and dear friends who've been praying along and supporting me in many areas and ways.. I couldn't have gone thru these past 3 years or today without them..

It truly is a new season and a new day for me.. Today marks a new beginning in my life..

One more day..

I've been waiting for tomorrow for the past one and a half years.. It's finally gonna go thru and I'll be able to move on with one area of my life.. But somehow now, I don't really feel like going thru with tomorrow.. Not that I've changed my mind about it or don't wanna go thru with it.. I just don't wanna meet the people involved in the situation.. I wish there was a way I could just settle it without having to face any of them.. that however is just not possible!! I haven't seen some of them in more than a year and they're not people that I really look forward to meeting..

My dad who before was not sure if he could come along with me has now gotten his leave approved.. My CL is also coming along to support me.. I hope my cousin now can make it.. Cos it's a working day, she's not sure if she can get out... but I really do hope she's able to.. I need some security on my part and she'll definitely provide it..

Will update tomorrow on how it went..

I miss him!

My dad just left for Johor yesterday.. The house feels so different now.. My mum misses him a lot.. She use to wait up for him to come back from work.. But now it's just her and me at home..

Spoke to my dad this morning and he's settling in there.. There's not much to do.. In fact, the place he's staying at for the moment doesn't even have a fridge or TV.. How la?? I initially thought that mum and I could cook for him and send him food.. But now with not fridge, I guess that's out of the question..

Sigh! I miss my dad.. He'll come back on weekends.. But it's just not the same!

Empowerment to Positioning

Today was KDYA's first cell of the year.. It was a refreshing night as many cellies shared about how cell and 2008 has impacted their life and what position they see themselves taking up in 2009, be it in cell or church.. I had to hold back tears as we shared.. It's just amazing how God has drawn us closer together through just this 4 months since we've multiplied..

There were a family of 13 of us tonight.. Praise God for 2 new visitors and 2 more who joined us from LIITA..

2008 was the Year of Empowerment and indeed it was a year that God had empowered me in many different areas of my life.. I joined the YA cell in June 2006 and it was also the time I began to start anew in my walk with God and started to serve more in cell and church.. As I went for the Watchnight Service at the end of 2007 and when Ps. Vincent shared that 2008 would be a Year of Empowerment, I decided that it was time to let go and let God in every aspect of my life.. I'm glad I made that decision because I now have seen the favour and blessings that God has poured into my life by just taking that little step of faith... I have never been more satisfied in God and can't recall a time that I've been happier...

Cell has also played a huge part in the person I am today.. I've grown so much in the past year and a half because of dear friends who truly cared about my spiritual growth and genuinely just cared about me.. A dear friend of mine always says that "Cell's not just where we meet on Fridays, but instead cell is living life together"... That statement is so true.. Through my lowest and darkest times, I would call on my cellies to just have a shoulder to cry on or to be prayed for.. Through my happiest times, I would call on my cellies just to be able to share my joy with them and laugh together.. God has also blessed me with wonderful leaders who have lovingly mentored me.. I've learned so much from you.. Thank you for consistently checking up on me and praying along with me..

2009 is the Year of Positioning.. I believe that I was positioned to be in my current cell for a reason.. I'm excited to see the things that God has in store for this cell.. However, I have to be obedient in what He requires of me.. All of us need to.. Only then can His plan be fulfilled for this cell..

"From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work." Eph 4:16

Bigger Picture

It's been an interesting week so far.. and it's only Thursday!!

I just got off the phone with dad about his transfer.. He's still trying to see what he can do about it, whom he can talk to about it.. I don't want him to be transferred... It's gonna be so weird with only having to see him on weekends.. Sigh! I guess I just have to leave it up to God.. Maybe God has greater plans for him there??

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28

Dad was very upset about it when he first found out.. but now he seems to be calmer and at peace.. He's seeing someone else about it tomorrow.. So I guess we'll know for sure tomorrow.. I'm just gonna claim that verse and trust that it will all work out well.. Though it's really hard at times, but I know God sees the bigger picture..

Work out!

I played badminton yesterday after a long break.. I think it's been about 8 months.. Boy! my body's really aching today.. But it was a good work out.. With all the food I've been stuffing down for the last 2 months and with no exercise, it was starting to show... haha.. maybe I'll go for a swim next Sun as well..

Shocking News

I just found out that my dad might be transfered.. to a different state!!! This cannot be happening..

Open Hearts

My face feels so clean now! =)

Just came back from my free facial at Clarins. Mum got a voucher for her birthday and she gave it to me so I gladly took it la. Lol. It was just so relaxing and my skin feels more radiant now.

My appointment was at 230pm but I reached 1U at 150pm so decided to just walk around and while walking around Jusco I met a high school friend. We chatted for a bit then decided to go get something to eat. I remember when I was back in high school, we were just the hi-bye friends.

Surprisingly we were able to connect really well. We both had similiar life experience so I was able to understand all that she's been through.

We exchanged numbers..

Then the HS reminded me about our prayer yesterday at prayer meeting when we prayed for the Cell Christmas Party on Nov 19th so I decided that I'd invite her. She was so opened to the invitation and even saved the details onto her phone calendar. It's just amazing how God's open doors of opportunities.

I'm looking forward to more opened doors!

Faith

I followed PJK after my class today as she was sharing at a breast cancer support group.. I was so blessed to hear the testimonies of those who are now cancer free and those who are now in the midst of their battle.. Their faith in believing God to heal them really touched me..

WOOOOOWWW~!!

Someone else mentioned Isaiah 40:31 during supper just now...

Freaky~~~

Hope

My cousin sent me a message two days back.. It read..

"But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength" Isaiah 40:31

She rarely sends me messages so it was really nice to wake up to this particular verse.. Then we had cell at night and the topic was also on hope.. Then I went to service this morning because I was serving in AV and the bible verse that was put up during service on both the left and right screens were.. (you guessed it right!) Isaiah 40:31..

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW.. You know what I mean.. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW.. haha (sorry inside joke)

Thank you Lord for that reminder.. I will put my hope in You.. At times when it just seems too tough, too tiring and just too overwhelming.. I will put my hope and trust in you..